"we blindly searchin for answers ..." Thawfor - Savor the Moment
man. i'm fucked up. one of those fucked ups i've been working on
for a few weeks. i've decided to become an acoholic, but it isn't
going very well ... right now i'm seeing double and typing onto
a tv with bad resolution sitting in a chair at a bad angle.
and im drunk.
i've been drinking for weeks, five gallon steel reserves et al, but either i get really drunk quickly and have a good time momentarily or i just dont have a positive effect from the cause and drink with
the thought that i will get drunk motivating me.
either way, i'm drunk, i can get a ... no, noncoherent, lots of
forgots, like 500, but there is a point to this post, be it
entertaining or interesting, prophetic and delusional or imaginative
and blessed, there is a point.
from my research on psychedelics, both subjective and objective,
a majority of its ingestants exhibit subtle to extreme changes
in personality. of these ingestants, a small percentage of them
have horribly negative reactions. this is according to speculation
and perusing the abbie hoffman collection. personally i've lost my
mind, and control and regularity of my senses and memories, but i've
watched a close friend lose his entire personality and cognition,
partially due to inherited bad genes, partially due to too much
psychedelics.
i put the number of people who have bad trips that last a genetic
lifetime at five percent. these people have so called unstable
minds - are predisposed to having mental problems and issues. there
is no clearly defined classification of what these predispositions
are, but being a big head and watching lots of people, you can tell
them more times than not. lots of people take time to exhibit truely
psychotic tell-tale signs but you can see it in their eyes most often.
jake, jakes in that five percent, he's talking to himself, taking odd amounts of time to respond to verbal interaction, loosing pace
of what hes currently doing, and generally being absent, comotose,
being entertained by his "voices" and such. making weird faces
and arm gestures; grinning and smiling and laughing to the aethers.
my eyes are starting to cross. maybe food would help ... but oh
the kitchen is a mess.
the point of this story is that i am very optimistic in hoping
that i can be five point one percent. [smoke brek]
man, documentation is so useful. in various forms, varying
perspectives. incalculable.
How ya doin, this is Chad. I reject your reality, and choose to substitute my own. Thank you very much.
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